Yup. It's happening. I gave Hood Hospital my notice this week, and I'll be starting a new job soon. I'll still be an ER nurse, and it's pretty close by, so the stuff I see will be somewhat similar, but just less crazy. New hospital sees a little less people, but it's also run waaay more efficiently. The most amazing part of all- ER BFF is going with me. Apparently when you work in the most ghetto, batshit crazy ER in the city, it's pretty easy to get hired on wherever because they know you can hang.
I'm beyond excited. I'm sleeping a lot better, and even when shifts at Hood Hospital are shitty, I can at least tell myself that I'll be out of here soon. It's gonna suck to leave my friends, but I'm so afraid that if I stay here any longer that it could potentially ruin nursing for me forever. I'm watching people that have stepped up into the roles that I've stepped up to before me- people that I know are amazing nurses, but who have lost a lot of the love for what they do. This place has taken everything they have. Before I could see my way out, back when I was still trying to figure out what to do, I would seriously just sit up and cry for absolutely no reason I could identify. I was a complete and total basket case a month ago, and I pretty much made life impossible for my poor husband. I know things where I'm going aren't going to be perfect, but I really don't think that I have to settle for a job that's so toxic.
We'll see how it goes. I'm just relieved I have someone here with me who is going to be going through the same adjustments and growing pains that I am. I think part of the reason I stayed so long was oddly how horrible it was for me there as a new nurse. I know the situation was different, but it was really tough being new and isolated and being shy and weird to boot. I've honestly been a little scared of having to go somewhere new and start fresh with all new people that don't know my quirks and such. Even if this place is staffed with 100 percent total princess Bs, I at least know I have one friend.
The funny thing about all of it is that we're among several people who have jumped ship in the last couple of months. They've lost nearly a quarter of the staff here recently, and it's finally, finally, caught the attention of the bigwigs. Despite being told this for multiple YEARS, these idiots are all of a sudden all "OMGZ, you mean you guys don't like running this place with half the staff you're supposed to have and never eating or peeing, and that comparable places with more staff get more shit done and have happier patients? Well OKEY DOKEY then, let's get you a bunch of new staff!" Except...yeah... the amount they're hiring will only serve to replace the experienced staff that left, so..yeah.
But you know what? It doesn't matter anymore. They can make all the promises they want, because I know they're full of crap, and I don't have to take it anymore. It's a pretty great feeling.