Look, I know I already talked about this shit two entries ago, so whatever, move on, nothing to see here, but can I just reinforce how tired I am of being everyone's bitch at this new hospital? Like, seriously. I almost swear they're fucking with me sometimes.
So, last night my teammates both went home before the shift was over, that was pretty standard, whatevs. Everything was done on their people, no one was super sick, so even though I had, like, eight patients, I was like, go home, bye, I got this. So I do everything on the new person I got and discharge some others and I'm in a holding pattern with a few others when I get a new patient, chronic fill in the blank twice a week visitor who is certified cray-cray. Goodie. Well, at least I'm maxed out on patients. I guess. So I'm at 5 at this point, which is weird, because everyone else at this joint seems to have about one or two. Whatevs, okay. I'm not overwhelmed or anything, but even the triage nurse who brought the patient back per the charge nurse instructions is like, "yup, that's an interesting choice." So I'm on standby with this crazy lady because who the hell knows if the doctor is going to do anything or everything because she was here like, 20 minutes ago practically and did I mention she was totally balls insane? So I discharge another patient. But at this point, my admit has orders that I have to take care of now, and my suicidal patient needs report called to the psych hospital, and my other patient just got orders placed so now I have to give a thousand meds, another is in pain, and WHAT. THE. FUCK. They sure did just send me an ambulance.
Oh, who by the way is totes a surgical case, in case anyone was wondering. Board update, everybody else is at zero to one patients, but who the hell is counting? Well, the doctor. The one who came back and was like, uh, WTF, why do you have ALL the patients? Oh, and at this point they have ordered all the labs on crazy lady without seeing her, and I'm still trying to take care of all this other shit and as well as get this new lady who is actually legit sick taken care of, and everyone else is talking and going out to smoke and braiding each other's hair or whatever. I'll at least give this charge credit- she eventually sent me one of the people who had zero patients to help me at one point, but by that time I was pretty much already done with everything.
I mean, damn. I don't even know what to do. I very tactfully brought this crap up to one of the charge nurses about a week ago, who basically acted like I was being a drama queen and made a big to-do about helping me without actually helping me. No, bitch, signing up for one of my 6 patients and then doing nothing for them doesn't do a whole lot for me. And now I'm getting a total condescending douche vibe from this lady that I can't even deal with. It's not like the load I had tonight was any worse than anything I had at Hood Hospital 1, or that I ever feared for any of my patients lives- I just hate being behind and not having my stuff done. And it's just annoying when I'm running my ass off and everyone else is still sitting down. So, basically, I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't win. I'm not sure talking to anyone will make any real difference, and there is very little that is worse to me than the drama of confronting someone about this foolishness. I've never felt like my license was in danger or anything like I did, well, basically all the time at Hood Hospital. I can take this. It's just frustrating. I just want a job where it's fair, where I can go pee, and where I can actually take some time to take good care of my patients. Is that some kind of pipe dream? Ugghh I need to get off my ass and start grad school already.